The death of a beloved author is so different, for me, than when any other celebrity dies. It may seem silly. After all, I didn't know Mr. Updike personally. It's not as if I was breathlessly awaiting great new work from him; to be honest, my Updikephilia is focused on just four books that he wrote many years ago, the Rabbit series
But when I read and love a living author's work, I think some part of me always hopes that I will get a chance to meet this person, or -- even more far fetched -- that they will someday read my work and love me as I have loved them. Ridiculous, I know, considering my lack of accomplishment and renown in the realm of fiction and essays. But before, it was possible. Now, it's a grim certainty that my literary crush will forever be unrequited.
Nutmeg was with me when I heard yesterday on the radio that he had died at age 76. Like any sensitive child, she doesn't like to hear Mommy upset, but I couldn't help letting loose a loud "Oh, no!" at the news.
Today, of course, Fresh Air replayed an old interview with Updike, and again we were in the car. After every break, Terri Gross repeated that "Updike died yesterday of lung cancer."
"Radio!" Nutmeg yelled from the back seat. "Stop REMINDING us!"